The Bunny Visited Our House...

Yep. Good 'ol Easter Bunny visited our house. And, there's that toxic brown stuff (I'm meaning Chocolate, of course!) EVERYWHERE!

Even I made out like a bandit ~ my inlaws, my grandparents... they all like to give me chocolate. And, who am I to refuse, right?

Except that I've been eating it. I should've thrown it out. I've *thought* about throwing it out. But, I keep thinking, "So long as I eat it only when my stomach is empty, I can keep it". Well, AM I eating it only when my stomach is empty? Sometimes yes, sometimes no.

I've not been exercising. I've not been getting in my daily water requirement. And, I've basically not been following my plan AT ALL. But, that doesn't mean I'm not thinking about it! LOL.

I keep wanting to go outside and run... with the weather warming up, and the days being sunnier, I've been craving that run. But, I have been too chicken to try it, yet. I keep making excuses... the biggest one being that I've not exercised (formally) in about 5 weeks, so I am not really in the shape I need to be in to take up running ~ right? Or, do you think I could just get out there and start, regardless? I would be doing intervals of walking & jogging... but do you think I should work my way *up* to that, walking (only) first? That was the original game plan, until I fell off my horse. LOL

Ah well. My motivation is slowly returning. Must keep fighting for this... "I think I can, I think I can, I KNOW I can..."! ;-P

Blech...

I don't have much to write, today, except that I've been "off my wagon". I haven't done anything at all towards my "plan", lately.

But, I've been reading, and I found a good book that might help. We'll see. I'll share with you, later, how it works. ;o)

Just over 2 months

Since I restarted working on things on January 7th of this year, it's been just over 2 months. But, I can't really count the last week or two, I don't think -- I've become complacent again, almost not caring whether I change or stay the same.

My attitude has taken a nose-dive. I've tried to remain positive, but it's getting harder. I haven't been exercising (although, I did do a 2 mile walk on Monday, and intend to do another today), and I've not been getting in my water, fruits or veggies. I've basically let everything slide.

It's not that I don't want to change... I REALLY, REALLY do! And, I'm not sure why I've gotten into such a funk. I know I've been suffering from depression, but I'm not sure of the cause of that... I thought it was Seasonal Affective Disorder, so I got some Vitamin D3 capsules to take. But, even taking those, I'm still suffering from the blues. Even when the sun is shining bright outside, I can be feeling so down that I wanna cry. :-(

Ah well. I'm not giving up. Yesterday I got 2 magazines in the mail (SHAPE and Runner's World), and they reminded me of why I want to work on things -- I want to be thinner, fit, healthier, stronger, and more confident, and I want to take up running to feel that sense of empowerment it brings from knowing I'm strong enough to do such a thing. :-?

So, we'll keep trying. Off to do my workout...

A new month, new goals

I amaze myself. Today, for one of my online groups, I tallied how many minutes of exercise I did in February. First, I have to tell you that I'd set my MARCH goal as 660 minutes, firguring that would be an increase. Well, then I tally up February, and find out that I did a total of 665 minutes! LOL. So, I think I'll have to re-think my March goals! LOL :-P

I also hope to change things up a bit. Up until now (since January 7th, anyway), my focus has been on exercising. I figured that, if I built up my muscle first, the weight would fall off easier, 'cause muscle burns more, right? But, I'm not losing much. I *did* lose another 1/2 inch in both my waist and my biceps this past month, so THAT'S good news! But, I am not losing weight. Sure, the scale isn't a good way to judge that. I am probably building muscle. In fact, I'm pretty sure I have built at least *some*, as I can see the definition in my thighs and calves a bit, again. :-) But, I want that darn number on the scale to go DOWN, please & thank you! :-?

SO, long-story-shorter, I'm planning on putting more focus on the eating side of things for March, while still continuing to exercise. I want to eat half of what I've *been* eating, and remember, more often, to PRAY when tempted to eat outside of true hunger. I need to pray, too, when tempted to eat more than I actually need. I've been too "greedy" for more than my body needs, so that's probably the reason I haven't lost any weight.

My goal? To lose 6 pounds in March. That's doable, I think. And, it will take me out of the range I'm in... a much-welcomed thought! ;o)

OVERALL, though, I'm still aiming to just be healthier. So, no more of this letting silly little "obstacles" get in my way... onward to health!